YESSSS! exams are officially over! and i am so exicted i just cant hide it! haha and nothing like a nice busy weeekend full of friends anf fun to follow. with that note i would like to add..HAPPY 17TH BDAY TOMORROW MADELINE!yay finally 17 dearr and you made it alive and well. this is going to be an exciting time.

so life is rolling right along..coming out of exams im rolling right into the spring musical. which by the way controls and will control my life until after april! so thats where i be at with all my afternoon time. im playing maureen which is very interesting because i have to be a ducky..and make animal noises-and i dont enjoy it at all!

but anyways life is grand well not really but whatever ill get over it sooner or later. grl ans club is doing a huge sleepover thing this weekend so im totally stocked about that!

im so sick of letting people use me..why do i fall for the ass holes? why is it in my past couple years ive been a huge fishing net for all those mean and cruel people we call friends. im tired of being hurt and thrown around..pushed to the ground. where have i gone wrong? and what have i done to you honestly?

ive realized so much these past weeks..how two faced our generation really is. who is telling the truth anyways? who is a real friend? and how do you know they really dont hate you...i feel so helpless right now.

everything that i know and who i know is changing so rapidly..im beginning to see who i really have and who i dont. why do you have to be so immature? ive tryed but its no use anymore..so this friendship is in your hands my dear..im sick of fighting you

why is it always the asshole im falling for? when will i find the guy who falls for me and calls me and wants to see me or hear my voice? too bad i think i found him..but didnt want him.i let him go.but thats ok cuz hes better off..maybe one day! too bad college guys are even asses!

i hate questioning things.i hate complicated situations.i hate things i cant control.i hate awkwardness.i hate being mean.

whatever! <my new and most rad philosophy...live by it

vindicated..i am selfish i am wrong i am right i swear im right i swear i knew it all along...and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well i am seeing in me now the things you swear you saw in yourself

hope it dangles on a string..like slow spinning redemption

gosh this whole weather screws me up..messes with my mind! haha i dont even know what day to think it is or what day it feels like! and im so mad the ski trip got cancelled..GOSH! well whatever..life seems pretty screwy right now anyways.

let me slip away..let me slip away...let me slip away against the current.

why do people honestly feel the need the desire to screw over and lie to there friends? its crap..pure crap! what the hell did i do to these ppl? like have i seriously done anything for you too treat me like this? im so confused and pissed as hell as i should be! i mean damn you...all of you!

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

^so thats what i feel like...a complete loser who you all determinally decided to hurt..and well damn right you hurt me so good job!

well not everyone if completly fucked up so thank you too those who arent!

why in one weekend...everything can go down? you find things out..i mean seriously ppl lie so much. this really makes me wonder who i can trust and it shouldnt be that way..esp with your friends! ahh!

happy three day weekend to me!

times like these call for desperate measures... doing what i did feels like the best thing i could of ever done for myself. you have no idea! dreams of it have def faded and are way past due..

yay brittany got her license and im very excited for her..and esp now i wont have to hear about it 24/7! haha she knows i still love her. so lately..we been cruisin the yc. today i had auditions for the spring musical. i think it went alright...but i guess well see uh? ive feel so over loaded with exams coming up right around the corner..there are so many stupid things that teachers give us and ah i hate it. but w/e i cant do anything about that.

life is life..and thats the way it will always be. ill have my ups and then ill have my downs..what else can you expect.